Denied _ImaCutYou - Ban Appeal

Additional In Game Names: HibikiTachibana (i think it was MVG_M2K at the time of being banned) (unranked), Scarlion (elite), MakiiDesu (was xReol at the time of being banned) (ult)

When you were banned: 6/7/16 9:00 PM PST

Reason for ban: Toxicity, staff disrespect, negativity, server hate. "appeal in 90 years"

Ban Length: perm

Staff member who issued ban: Klutch

What have you learned and why should we trust you to do better? What I've learned
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Oh boy. While it's still a problem with me (as I grew up around it and it's what I was indirectly taught), I have learned that I blame people for what I do. I'll blame someone for, in this case, not warning me (I knew what I was doing wrong while doing it, I just had something extra to say as usual). In learning that, I've also learned to stop myself from blaming other people constantly. I've learned to own up to what I do wrong, see it from a learning perspective if possible, and move on. If it actually is my fault, people see that. If it isn't actually my fault, both I and other people also see that. I had and still don't have a reason to blame other people for myself being rude to them. Especially considering it was unprovoked. I just kinda started going off. Those are things that have helped me, even in school. Say I get a bad grade on a test, I will no longer try to say "my teacher didn't teach us well enough..". Instead, I take it from an approach of, okay. Maybe I need to study more, or try different studying methods. Maybe what I (emphasis on I) did wasn't right.

Along with learning what I said above, I also learned that it just isn't cool to be so rude to people who want nothing more than to provide a good time for other people. Staff on this server (there has been a few notable exceptions and probably will be even more in the future of meep) just want to help give everyone on the server a fun experience. For me to disrupt that for no reason was just not okay. The second part of this will help better explain why I've learned from this and why it will change.

Why should we trust you
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I've been seeing a therapist for a couple months now, and it's really been helping me with my classic excuse of "my mental health is unstable". We're still working at resolving devastating problems, disorders, whatever, but just talking to someone who can't legally tell what I say to anybody else without consent from me has helped me a lot. I came to realization that if I were to keep on being the same toxic-online-not-offline person that I was, it would bleed into real life sure enough, and then I would start to drastically affect real life for me, too. What am I with a horrible real personality and horrible online personality? Seeing a therapist and actually getting help for mental problems, and possibly medication for my mental disorders is something that I think could be used as a reason to trust me again. It's hard to really say strongly that you can trust me because of my consistent past.

Please give any other information you might think is useful for us to know: The meep community has honestly changed my life. Joining so early and (while not very well for most of it) seeing it grow and fall and change so much has given me a really.... weird emotion. I don't know a name to give it, but it's good. I'm happy that I'm still given the opportunity to remain in this great community, be it just on forums or (hopefully) in game too.

While that might not be directly useful, I just hope that it actually means something to say it. I hope I'm given the chance I may not completely deserve.

Either way, regardless of the outcome, thank you to whoever may read this, and thank you for even letting me appeal.

 

Stop posting useless crap on forums and be positive and active and constructive, then we'll consider it.