Helper Application from Dawn

Member Name Dawn

Additional In Game Names: DawnoftheMoon xDawney Peridawnyx

How old are you? 15

Location: Saint louis, Missouri

Do you have TeamSpeak? Yes

How many hours per day do you play MeepCraft? (weekdays) 2-3

How many hours per day do you play MeepCraft? (weekends) 4-5

Have you ever been staff on this or any other server? Yes

References: Please give IGN's GroovyGrevous, NickxGold, Courtneyyy, Kirby99, DarkKnight49, TechnoTyson, MegaStufOreo, Pmx_, HungryOtaku

When did you join Meepcraft? June 27th 2014

Introduction: Hi there! My name is Alex. I currently live in Saint Louis, Missouri. I have a brother and live with my Mom. My hobbies include playing my Oboe, playing video games, and scholar bowl (which is a school organized thing in which we compete in school-based trivia questions based on level of knowledge). I currently have a 4.1 cumulative GPA and help tutor other students in subjects of interest, such as math and science which are usually the most difficult.

Music is kind of a must with me and I don’t think I could live without it. My favorite kinds include Country, classical, and pop. My favorite singer is Taylor Swift (as you have probably seen me say in chat). My biggest dream is to travel to 51 countries in the world, I don’t care which ones. I just want to tell people I’ve been to more countries than there are states in the U.S! I’ve been to 5 so far! I’ve been to France, the U.s, England, the Bahamas, and Germany!

Ever since I was about 12 I have begun to be very involved in my church community and help with a thing called PEP, which is an organization to where we arrange events for people in assisted living with special needs from down syndrome to Alzheimer's disease. I love serving my community, it makes me feel more in touch with my religion and makes me feel great about myself knowing that another person has been given something they might not have received if I had not stepped in.

Why should you be Helper? As a helper, you take on a lot of responsibility, and also pressure from lots of aspects of the server, and I really think I’m ready to take that on, mostly because I’ve been able to handle school with better character and determination than last year.

So far this school year I have become more

-Mature

Current pressure of school has allowed me to become more mature and dedicate more time to acting professional in school. In school, my teachers are almost like college professors, and the work we receive makes us act older than we really are. My dad and my mom have also become recently divorced, and that was really hard on me. But I know for myself, that I needed to be a strong component in my mother’s life through her struggles with MS and medical health issues.

I think that pressure, in both of these components has allowed me to further become more mature and compassionate, and especially understanding of other people’s struggles with disease or issues at home. (If anyone needs to talk to me i’m an open ear<3)

-Kind
I’ve made a lot of new friends this year in school! I am heavily involved in extracurriculars including volleyball, scholar bowl, and band. All 3 groups are incredibly different but I treat everyone as they are! I understand that everyone has their differences and I treat everyone at my school as equals, no matter who they are. I am a kind person, and I love to be social and talk, as you have probably observed in chat. I talk to everyone and ask how their day is, because I know that that is an important thing that I like to hear during my day as well.

Outside of my extracurriculars I am also involved in now, NHS (national honor society) which is an organization dedicated to serving your community and becoming a better citizen in urban society. I do service usually during my winter semester, as we are required to dedicate 80 hours (points) of service to the society, and I think that being in NHS has made me a better person. I’ve seen how people live in society, and I’ve worked in soup kitchens around my city and seen what it’s like to have almost nothing.

I know that this is a big trait to have as a helper, because people throw a lot at you from every side and I really wasn’t good at taking this last year, but something about this year is different. I don’t really get offended by what people say about me anymore, which is something that used to bug me a ton.

-Hardworking
All of this pressure is enveloping me in a whole new world or work. The work in high school is absolutely and truly horrific and terribly hard, but it’s starting to prepare me for what it will be like after high school. The work this year has allowed me to see truly, what college will be like, and to prepare for life in the real world.

I know this is a valuable component for helpers, because in order to get work and tasks done you need to have determination, perseverance, and travaillant qualities. In these cases “quality over quantity” so to speak. My teachers expect the very best from me, since I am in all pre-ap and ap classes this year. My work is done to the very best of my abilities, and the product usually reaps very well, in the case of school, good grades. In the case of helper, good ideas and well-done modreqs.

During my time as staff, I put a great amount of time and effort into modreqs and Trello projects. I made an effort to complete 5-8 modreqs a day (on average) with quality of service in mind. I also eagerly participated in Trello projects. I loved participating in these because it helped me get closer involved within the staff team, and allowed me to furthermore show the amount of effort I could put out, with quality work expended. Trellis Is a fantastic way to give the development team ways to make meep even better than it is. -Determined

I live by the quotes “If you can dream it, you can do it!” and “Shoot for the moon, because even if you miss, you’ll land among the stars”. If I set my mind to accomplishing a task I know that I can accomplish it, and even when you fail you learn something from it, like my demotion, in which I learned more about my flaws and how to accept them and to do better, in which this round I am ready to do whatever it takes to prove my worth to the team.

Determination means that effort is put out and these past few months I have made so much effort to improve, through maturity all the way to my attitude. My school grades have improved, I'm captain of my volleyball team now, that, to me, shows determination.

What are your weaknesses? -Short-tempered

Over smaller things I get rather annoyed. In picking out certain things people say that I disagree with a lot of things can get to me easier when I do not get my way or my opinion is not heard well enough. I had a lot of disagreements with a lot of people that I wish I could fix but the damage had been done and I regret it very much. While conversing with other people in debates I usually am not very good at debating, as conflicting opinions are very hard for me to debate as I believe my side is usually true.

I'm working to improve on this. A lot of this comes from my chronic depression and my mother's hardships irl. I go to counseling at school and I'm thinking it's helping a lot! I don't have near as many outbursts as I used too, although I still get annoyed very easily. My chronic depression started around last year when my parents went through a rather ugly divorce, and I went through a period of intense emotional trauma and took it out on a lot of people that didn't deserve it.

-Softhearted
This is basically dealing with my emotions and such. I'm a rather kind and gentle person and I don't like seeing people get hurt, especially myself. I don't have walls, and people come and go through my walls so easy and break me down from the inside. I've had a rough past few months and most of my troubles with irl stuff happened around the time of my demotion, where my mom started getting sicker and more depressed and I started to tear up on the inside, where I took control and for my own need to have self worth, I trampled on an admins position of authority and made many other mistakes to make myself feel like I was worth something. I’ve had a very good past few months, but I still get hurt so do easily. It's funny how just a couple words can change almost everything about your day, for better or for worse. The emotional trauma of my parents divorce made me an entirely different person and I think I've recovered now, but I never know when something will pop up that will make me extra moody and cause my tender heart to throb.

A lot of things that could lead to this improving is with the support of the team making me feel worth the position,and knowing I have people there for me when I need them, which I usually only had 2 people my last round! I've gotten better, reconciled with people who I never thought I would and become fantastic friends with them. My tender heart can be good but also my worst enemy sometimes. This can be improved by MYSELF acknowledging my self worth, which is really hard for me sometimes but I'm getting there through counseling and the love of my mother and friends like nickxgold and courtney.

-Stress
One of my final ones.

While it may not seem like stress can hurt someone, because stress can also be a motivator, in my case stress is not a strength. When I undergo periods of stress, like finals for example, I become more depressed and have frequent panic attacks about small things almost weeks before things happen. In school stress makes me study harder, but gives me paranoia about myself because I feel like I'm not doing something right and I'll most likely change something a lot before the product is finished.

A little bit of pressure is fine, but when I'm stressed I simply can not motivate myself to do a lot, and in school this happens a lot.

I don't really know how to improve me getting panic attacks from it really. With finals over this most likely will not be an issue until early may, as stress usually will come with school. I also know that staff work can be stressful, with lots of hours and time that will be expended on making the server better. I've been seeing a counselor about a lot of my issues and I believe that stress will not get to me as easily in the coming months as counseling has been slowly improving my mood swings that I experience during the finals slump.

Please give any other information you might think is useful for us to know: I know that I said that I was applying in January, at the time i see no point in sitting aside while there is currently 1 helper, I believe that I am a very valuable asset to the server and that if I am promoted I will benefit the team instead of hurting it, merely waiting until January is not right, because I can start working now. I have been ready for this for months. Thank you for your time and consideration on my helper application and I hope that I get to start serving this server and changing it further to the way it once was again soon.

If you need to contact me further add me on Snapchat @that.onealex. I hope I get the chance to serve you all again soon! Have a great day.

 

Improve before you apply. I have seen no change.
Sometimes it takes longer. Set a date a month or two away, and actually stick to it. Focus on asking yourself if people want someone with your currwnt maturity level and attitude. Plus, I know theres several people on the team [myself included] who dont feel that we could always trust you to do the job right.
Patience is a virtue.

Edit: I dont know WHAT the hell the deal is with this rumour that youre sleeping with someome else on meep is, but I know you are either the cause or an encourager of that. And that is 100% not acceptable.

 

Hi dawn, we had a chat a few days ago and you told me you weren't going to apply until January, I remember when we spoke about this you said you weren't going to put it up early like you normally do, and yet here it is. That makes me wonder if we can actually trust your word. I do see you brought this up but when you told me January there was 1 helper still and you were the one who told me that.

Now also when we spoke I advised you that you should focus on your community activity, forums and in game. This was around 3-4 days ago and I can't see how you could have done that in that time.

Now your application is really really really well written, there is no doubt about that. You made sure the same mistake that occurred last time did not occur again which means you took the time and went over it.

For me my vote is neutral because I can see there are equal pros and cons here.

Good luck

 

+1

i've never had any poor feelings towards you and you've always been cool

whatever muunk said about rumors that youre "sleeping with someone else from meep" is weird but i dont really believe it anyway lol

Goodluck

 

Most of what I said last time still stands:
"When you first told me you were going to apply, I was curious. I had only heard bits and pieces of what you were like previously. I have personally never had an issue with you, Dawn, but I always have my concerns when it comes to anyone. For you, I'm concerned about a number of things. In our first discussion where we discussed it, you said you were going to apply much later than this. Then, tonight, you just out of the blue decide to apply. This shows a good deal of immaturity and impatience, which were concerns of mine even before. Like I said, I have nothing against you personally, but it does put me off a tad. Looking at your app, there are so many spaces. I understand Google docs does it differently, but that doesn't mean you can't edit it when you copy it to the forums. That's what I did, after all. I'd like to see the "why" section longer than your weaknesses area. Overall, I think you need to just play the game for a while, and rebuild things a bit more, best of luck!"
You changed your application, but other than that, you haven't changed anything else.

 

-1 i saw no chances in you since the last app. And The fact that you apply sooner than you said shows me that you are rushing into this with no effort to change you're self.

 

I still don't trust you 100 percent but you did take a step in the right direction when you had concerns about a staff decision instead of rant and raving publicly. I am not bothered about what you do outside of the game, we all have activities/hobbies we like to do. I believe you still have the same problem as you did when you left the team, you tell people things you shouldn't.

Before leaving you were trusted with something private with a person and you told the entire staff team about it, that is a big red flag because as I said to you that day if you will spill the beans about a friend I dont know how you would keep your mouth shut about staff information. I do not understand why you having relations with someone is a big woo har, congratulations. My only problem with it is that you gave away the persons name and it could then make them embarrased and not want to play Meepcraft again.

If you are having banter with the lads and talk about private things keep names out of it. You are getting better though. -1

 

I love saint louis amazing arch thingy there +1

 

Since the moment i became a helper i consistently tried to become a better person, and in saying i have put no effort in an attempt to become better you are clearly misled. I do not believe i have seen you enough in which you are forming this opinion on me, and i would really like to chat with you, as you have not seen me enough to base the opinion that i am not making an effort to change. Please pm ne when you are free and we can chat .

--- Double Post Merged, Dec 12, 2016, Original Post Date: Dec 12, 2016 ---

I have to address this because this is a burden i need to get off my back.

I resolved this with her because the night that this incident occured i had been at a party and drank way too much, the events that occurred that night was bloviating in which i cannot believe happened, none of what i said was true

I will say this though, she confronted me about it and i told her the truth. Kling you also brought this up in a public channel in front of a lot of other people, which was also not good behavior. I made up with her, and I made a promise to day that it was not true and that i made a huge mistake. I am just saying that her was especially upset about you bringing it up in front of a lot of others which furthered this more than it had to be, instead of confronting her and having us resolve it in which we did. I don't believe it is fair for you to put most of that incident on me.
Thank you for your concern however, as i get where it is coming from.

 

Dawn, whoa there buddy did not expect this one so soon. I have only had 1 conversation with you so I really can't say much, but what I can say is the conversation I did have was a good one, you were giving me a "heads up" for if i get accepted, you know your stuff due to you being a staff member before; However it looks like your tied in with some drama, I'm leaving my vote neutral because I see you need to work on something's as did I, I think you applied a bit soon but you felt you were ready and that's all that matters, good luck my friend and I hope to see you more often for some more conversations.

 

I have never heard of the rumor about you having relations with someone but even though i haven't heard about it, does not mean its not true. Second, if you do do that, you CERTAINLY DO NOT need to share it with anyone on meep. Lastly, when you were confronted on the matter of this rumor, you retaliated in an immature manner, trying to change the subject and blame someone else about something completely different. If you had, when asked about this "rumor" replied in a more mature way, owning up to your actions and simply apologizing, I may have thought differently but because you didn't, definitely a -1

 

Just because you don't see me on doesn't mean I don't know things, I am usually hidden on meepcraft watching the chat or doing staff work. I am always around on forums and in game at some point during the day. I also have other staff who pass info onto me and other staff on people who we know might apply for staff.

I'm entitled to my opinion about you, in no way you should try to tell my opinion doesn't matter.
I'm a huge -1, I do not like this attitude towards me.

 

Yeah mate, I had no intention to intervene but when I have 3 different players tell me and one to which was concerned. Keep in mind I did type her the question privately so people would not know and it was answered publicly so I gave my two cents on what she should do. I never told anyone what happened but I am glad you two have resolved the issue. We all get giddy but make sure you never say something you will regret. I take back my congratulations and say I am disgusted that you lied about what you said to the lads, lies affect not only yourself but others and so does that kind of information but I hope that situation helps for future reference. It was not furthered more than it had to be, you needed for her to tell you to keep your mouth muzzled. You have taken 2 steps back. -1

 

I'm not liking the attitude here. Telling Andrew that he can't have an opinion on you as he hasn't seen you enough? Not your position to tell him that whatsoever.
You said in November you were applying mid December, then you applied a few days later. Now you have said you were applying in January, yet here we are. You're quite inconsistent, and I feel as if this inconsistency comes down to simple immaturity.
I won't start on the trust issues for the third time, as each time you seemingly take no steps to change yourself and just wait a few weeks and apply again.
-1.

 

You say you are 15 and you drank way too much... I hope you were just drinking pop. Also, You were having underage relations. This is totally unacceptable to see in a staff member.

-1

 

Whoa.

Well Dawn, I'm surprised you applied this early. Although you had your reason to take out your other application, due to personal events occurring within your life. You'd be a great addition to the team. You and everyone else who's staff or has been staff inspired me to contribute and aid those in need within the server.
However.
You getting drunk and talking about confidential information to others while in this state is my problem. At your age, you shouldn't be drinking. I know a couple of kids who drank, smoke, did whatever when I was 15, getting screwed over by what they did. I know this cause of the neighborhood that I live in, full of what we call vagos. If you get helper and get drunk one day, who knows what you'll leak out to the public, whether it be a personal secret or information about the server that only staff should know. I know you know your stuff, getting accepted means we'll have someone who knows their stuff and will easily be able to get into being helper, yet you're still somewhat immature and with this event that occurred, you still need more time. The app itself was well written and thought out, which I do favor.
The only thing now is that you need to put your act up together and take the right path which includes the following. Be mature. Stop drinking (seriously, take my advice). Be a bit more active on Meep and help others when they ask for help.

My vote stands neutral from what I've seen here and from my experience with you. I know you can do better than this.

 

I don't know why you still want to be staff after some of the things people on the staff team have done towards you. But that's your own choice.

About this rumor, it IS mainly your own fault, but the fact that one staff member and 3 other players whom was in this TS channel and heard what you said, choose to go out and tell everyone on the server what you had said, is to me, wrong. If any of the participants in this TS channel had said anything just as personal, they would be just as sad if they had it leaked to everyone on the server, like Dawn had. And by the way, this rumor won't stop Dawn from doing his job as a staff member unless he chooses to make a problem out of it. But currently he's not doing so, it's everyone else who has a problem with this.

I see many of the comments holds a lot of the past against Dawn, not that it's a big issue, but i'm positive that if you forgot about it for a while and got to know Dawn a little more personal than you do now, you'd see him with other eyes.
You all tell him to "wait a few weeks and apply again". I'm not so sure that waiting a few weeks, months or whatever is going to change the way you see him. Because he makes as many mistakes as everybody else on your team does and we can keep pointing fingers at him but the truth is that, most of you have a bad past and it's not being held against you anymore, because you have changed. I can promise you that Dawn has changed, he does keep secrets, he isn't as immature as he was once and he definitely tries his best.

I can understand why you're against giving Dawn another shot at joining the staff team. You feel like he's untrustworthy because of his impatience. But honestly don't we all get a little impatient when we're waiting to do something that we just REALLY want to do? I get that he has said he would post his application and yadda yadda, but let's give him another chance, it is not like impatience is something that he can't work on, + your team should be able to help him with it. Anyway, IF he had not told you a so-called date to post his application on, it wouldn't be a problem and you would most likely just get suprised because a great applicant just applied to be a part of your team.

You are a team, right? I think Dawn could be a part of it just as well as any other player could. But you can't keep holding the past against him.

 

He is saying that he learned from it though.

+1
~You learned from your past mistakes as staff
~Knowledgeable
~Great app
~Determined

 

Why would you base your decision off of this? Where does it say that personal life decisions are against the rules? If you knew half of what current, former, and future staff did in their personal life, your logic would deem them unworthy of the position as well.

 

honestly it ain't your job to critique what this person has done in her life, especially sleeping with some creepy kid and underage drinking, thats her parent's jobs.