The End

Probs a lot of typos.

Alrighty… Here it goes. This is long overdue and I am sure many of you will be happy to hear this. I have decided to resign from the staff team. This is due to several reasons. The main reason is that I am clearly not needed. I have done several things for the server and virtually no reward has been placed. People often say “Staff is a thankless job. You shouldn’t expect something in return for your work”. The truth is, we deserve a lot more than what we currently have. We don’t get a thanks, we don’t receive any perks, and we sure as hell are not appreciated by the community. I really wish that could change, but it’s not like we can change their opinions, haha. I just wish there was something more to keep me motivated. If you have been on the team for as long as I have, then you would know how frustrating it is to do the exact same job 365+ days in a row. It is not fun. I do not enjoy it. The only thing recently I have enjoyed is the team itself. Don’t get me wrong, the job was fun, but I just can’t keep doing this. I love a lot of you so much. That is the main reason I have not left yet. You all made me feel loved, even though I don’t deserve it. I look forward to talking to all of you everyday. That is why I have stayed so long. Another reason is, I feel like the server needs to be improved. I don’t know what could be added to it, but it is not moving forward, and I think ALL of us know that. I hope that the admins and tech can do something to improve it. I can tell it is going forward already, but I need to take a step back. I would love to help improve it, but I just can’t. I will possibly reapply in the future, and I hope if I do that I would be accepted. I see a lot of ex-staff get denied. I care so much about this server, so never deny that. I spent a whole year of my life helping, enjoying, and improving this server. I would love to do it again. I wish there was an ambassador-rank for mods. I need to step back, but I want to help. I am going into high school in a week or so. I could hardly handle middle school, so I highly doubt I could juggle a full-time mod job, plus high school. And again, if I find out that I would be able to handle it, I will come back full time, but I have major doubts as of now. My depression had gotten a lot worse last school year, so I may need to focus on the spiritual side of myself for a while as well.

It has been the best year of my life so far. I met some of the greatest people ever. When Junior and I were the most active staff. When Bam and I would just enjoy being here. When phoenix and I would talk all the time. When zoe and I used to just have fun on the server. When klutch would always make fun of me on ts xD. These were my favorite memories. I loved this year so much. I can never forget the memories. When Phoenix and I helped junior cheat on his English quiz. When Junior, Bam, and I would just troll people in wild all day. I miss talking to tae and interdesirename on teamspeak. I miss coolers turning my town to water. I miss talking to zoe on teamspeak. I miss the fun application meetings. I miss mod applications. I miss Shain always making fun of me lol. I miss the competitive nature of helper trying to get mod. I miss mod interviews. I miss Deinen. I miss working on my town. I miss all of it… I miss the way it used to be. If I am being honest, the team is not nearly as close as it used to be. It feels like it is separated. Like mods are the rulers of the helpers. Like the supers are always our superiors. It used to be all of us. One team. We were all the same, and other people just had other jobs. I literally have to worry that a supremod who has been here for 1/4 of the time I have will demote me. I am not doing anything wrong. I just want to help. I think everyone needs to become a team again. This is literally a Minecraft server. Chill. You don’t need to be better than anyone else. If everyone would just realize they are the same and all doing one job, everyone would be so much happier. People need to use teamspeak more. That is how I met all of these wonderful people. I consider many of them to be my favorite people. The following people are people who I will never forget.

@xtJunior You were my best friend. We dominated the staff team. We were the best, I miss you.

@BaM_Nitro I am sure you hate me now because you have this stupid other personality now, but the person you used to be was one of my favorite people ever. I miss who you used to be. Talk to me on Skype sometime please.

@Zoe89 Love you. You never didn’t make me smile. You made me so happy on this team. Don’t lose contact with me <3

@KlutchDecals I’m gonna be straight forward with you. I always knew you were never going to give me supremod. I need you to know that I stayed on this team because I cared, not because of a dumb rank. You also gave me excellent memories. I miss the relation we used to have. We never talk anymore, and that makes me really upset.

@PhoenixAngel80 Love you. You were my meep mom, we would talk every day on ts. We made the best memories. We were always in meetings together. The day you left is when I truly stopped trying. That is when my job was no more to me. I had none of my old friends, and that is what made me happy. Please talk to me more ;(

@Deinen I’m sure you aren’t going to read this, but I always looked up to you. You were the best leader ever and I always respected you. You better get admin again someday…

@Cooleysworld You will also never see this, but you gave me all of my interviews. You saw how much I cared. You were a great leader and you need to come back…

@DevilSpawn112 We used to talk a lot too. Every time I think of you, I always get reminded of the old team. I think you were amazing.

@Muunkee You always gave me advice. You may not have always been nice about it, but damn are you a good friend when you want to be. Never stop talking to me. k? luv u.

@2004Grevous one of my fav staff members. Don’t stop talking to me or I will slaughter you.

@shains One of my all time favorite supremods. You truly knew how to run the staff team. A great leader for this place, and I respect the hell out of you.

@ImNotBlonde You always make me laugh. We had awesome memories on teamspeak. Writing this makes me remember how good everything used to be. How I never had to worry. Thx for being a meeper.

@Kling always brighten my day. Always.

@iMelXP another old staff that I love. You made me laugh so much, and you were easily one of my top 5 fav people to talk to. Miss u.

@interdesirename @TheAngelEclipse Do either of you remember when we would talk on ts for hours straight. All day. We were all so happy. We all made each other happy. I miss when we could just be like that…

@Foretvert Just miss u..

@SJP love you

@Coelho Love you more

Sorry if I forgot anyone… I love everyone I mentioned here.

I’m sure many of you hate me, but I just want this place to be happy. A place where people can be excited to spend their day. Where people can all just be the same and not have to worry someone will demote them. I want the old team back… I don’t want to be forgotten. I want my work to be remembered. I want to be known as adloves. Someone who tried, gave a lot of his time, and someone who cared. In the end, I will be forgotten. I will just disappear and people will be like “Hey remember that adloves kid?” and they will all just keep on with their day. I want everyone to realize what I am saying. I want people to realize how important this team is to me. I want it the way it used to be. I will never forget this, and hopefully I can come back someday. I love you guys so much… I had so many issues when deciding if I should do this. I have some of my best memories here. I just wanted to be remembered. I don’t want to just be some nobody. I donated so much money, time, and love to this server. A whole year as staff. I just wish there was some way. I really hope meep makes a comeback, and when it does and if I have the time, I will be right there to help. I know this is really dramatic, and I hate to make things this serious, but I just want the server to know how much this place meant to me. To me, it wasn’t just minecraft, It wasn’t just a server. It was the place where I could feel comfortable. Where I could be myself. Where people would hate me because I’m that weird kid who walks through the hallways. I wasn’t just some nobody here. I meant something here. Isn’t that what we all want. To be something? How strange it is to be anything at all.

Ok now for the even worse part. I am also quitting the server most likely. I do not know how long for, but I have no plans to come back. I just can’t believe I wrote that… This is just very difficult. It is something that my favorite memories are from. Last summer is when I made the best memories of my life. I made some of the best friends. That is what makes it difficult to leave. I plan on staying on the forums occasionally, but not often. I will probably keep my money, but I might sell my town and vault. The hardest part about all of this, is I won’t be able to go on slack and talk to everyone… This is just painful. I am sure so many people will just make fun of me in the comments. “It’s just Minecraft”, “Who cares?”, and “Who even is this kid?”. That stuff isn’t funny… I gave my time, and a hell of a lot of it. I don’t want my countless hours of work to be made fun of. I truly do care, and seeing people just destroy that would not be ok. I care about this server sooo much, but it just isn’t nearly the same anymore. It may sound like I was saying something against the server/staff, but please know that all I want is the best for this place.

I don’t want to say it’s because of school. While that is kind of true, it mostly isn’t the main reason. I have been very inactive anyways, and I can’t come online anymore. There is nothing to do. I find it sad that at the beginning of my run as staff we had nearly 200-300 player average, and now it is 100 or less sometimes. I mean absolutely no disrespect because of this, but we all know it’s true. The admins need to figure this out. We need more high staff (lady hestia needs smod and deinen needs admin). With that, they could figure something out. I have said a lot of different stuff in this message. All of it is true. I hated my job so much, and I loved my job more than anything. The server is dying, the server will always be alive. All of it is true at the same time. It is all stuff that I have thought on this journey as staff. All mixed feelings, all great, all bad. This server made me feel things that I never thought I would. I hope that everyone realizes this...

Alrighty, with that being said… Goodbye meepcraft… Thank you for the memories. You all saw me grow up. You saw me get extremely happy. You saw me close to losing myself. You saw me cry tears of joy. You saw me feeling loved. You saw my care. You saw me become me. I will NEVER EVER forget this place. It was the best time of my life, and I can’t get rid of those memories. Thank you for letting me become part of this wonderful server. I hope someone will remember me… Thank you for the memories, thank you for showing me myself. Thank you for everything… Goodbye.



~adlovesdogs

 

formatting hurts my head...

..anyway i appreciate what you have offered the staff/community and i thank you for what you have done for the past year.

you have also been a really cool person to talk to and ive enjoyed my time with you over the past couple years

good luck with whatever you decide to do!

 

gg.

 

Rip. Reading this brought back some great memories. Like you actually believing I was captintwinkie with a vpn or how fun staff use to be last year around this time. I really miss that time and would do anything to go back. I haven't been staff this time around but I bet it would never be like last year with me, you, junior, klutch, phoenix, slicks, diana, devil, shane, andrew and way more. I don't hate you, I believe you are a great guy and the only reason I hated on you was because I made a stupid mistake to resign while you were still staff. Hard to believe so much has changed in the past year, people quiting meep, people turning toxic *cough* but one thing that hasn't changed for me is the love I have for the awesome people I meet throughout my time on meep. <3

 

But we can be players together now!

 

*Sarcastic voice* And this long of a post . . . is why I dislike the new font.

*Serious voice* Adloves, we never really spoke one on one, but just looking from the outside in, I could tell there was something different to you, a slightly different way of looking at the world. Good or bad, depending on a person's perspective, it showed. To me, it was good, very good.

To me, there's always going to be something here that keeps people coming back, something rather unexplainable. I may not have been around as long as you e even been staff, but I too know the way the community rallies around people. It's the thing that runs through people. Meep goes beyond the sum of its parts, it is this place, that embodies what Minecraft is: a place to be free; to vanish from the physical world into a place where you, and only you, set your own path. There is not rich, nor poor, black or white, male or female, young or old, or anything. It's the glory of being online: physical characteristics fade away, leaving only the heart underneath.

 

You still single tho?

 

I relate to this on so many levels you have no idea.

I'm starting high school this year too, and I am no where near ready. I know how much old friends can mean to you. I've lost friends this year because of some stupid mistakes; hopefully that hasn't happened to you yet. I never really knew you but I do know that you are one hell of a dedicated person. I wish you the best of luck.~

 

I complained till Fuzzlr changed it back, youre welcome

Will miss you on here, addy. Skype lots. Love ya too. Ill keep your stuff safe best I can if you need.

 

See you ad, I really wish I had more opportunities to work with you as staff. Not sure if I have you on Skype, but Ill Snapchat you as much as I can
Good luck in everything

 

Thank you forr your time on meep. You will always be remembered.

 

After every modreq, even if it was 10 seconds, or we didn't find an answer I always tell them thanks so much and to have a good day because like you said you guys work so hard and in return everyone is all like "oh the staff team is stupid they arn't good anymore"

 

Me and most of the community will miss you! Hope you get through high school and I would love to see you back on meep!<3 Thanks for all you did for me, answering my modreqs, answering my endless amount of questions when i was a noob. <3
@adlovesdogs

 

Not a single typo was made in that post. GG.
Anyway, correct me if I'm wrong, but you always seemed like the epitome of a staff member to me, even though I've never seen you in game. You seemed like the sort of person who handled the most difficult reports and ban appeals to the best of your ability, not asking anything in return. If the whole staff team was made up of clones of you, hackers and bad behaviour would be pretty much non-existent, and meep would be the friendliest and most social server in all minecraft.
Good luck with high school and life.

 

ok ok being honest I totally welled up during this... I didn't expect this at all, but I can see a lot of the points you're making and I swear to god if I could I would've treasured last years time so. Much. More because I realize how much it meant to everyone. If you're still gonna play (I know it will never be the same) please find me in-game and even if you're not, still keep in touch...

maaan...

 

Thanks for the mention ♡
Honestly you did more than you thought you did and losing you will be a change in the team.
Good luck with high school- freshman year is a blast. I came back to the team end of sophomore year when I knew I could handle it. Maybe you will too!.

 

Alright, jerkface! Thanks for nearly making me cry. I too miss the good ole days. So much. As much as I wanted to be a staff member, it wasn't that "family" feel anymore. Gonna miss you. Snapchat me often! <3