After reading the concerns people have with me I'd like to sincerely say thank you for bringing these up.
Here's how I plan to deal with these issues
Full of it/acting superior
I need to remember that I'm not perfect. My opinions don't matter more than anyone else's. I will also try to be an better listener. This might be the hardest thing to fix for me but I'm going to try!
Trash talk
Some of the things I'm accused of saying are not true. However I did trash talk. I didn't understand that what I was doing was not ok. I thought that because it wasn't in bad spirit it was ok. I now see it's not and I need to learn to be confident enough to talk to people directly. Truth is, I'm easy to anger but I forgive even easier. I'm sorry to those I hurt and please know that I wasn't trying to be cruel and I dont hate you. I know that if someone did this to me I'd rather them come to me than spread rumors.
Power hungry
During my time on staff I loved all the work I did and I was addicted to it. I loved being a leader, I loved helping people, and doing trello work. I became obsessed with trying to do more and that's what a promotion meant to me. I didn't even realize it! If I'm accepted back on the team I'm going to go slower, put some of the effort I put here into real life, and try to form better relationships with my coworkers.
I am beyond sad that my relationships with people and the staff team here have suffered because of me and I hope this is the first step to remedy that. I'll ask of you to please talk to me if I do anything you dislike. Anything from a simple comment I made to the way I treat people.
