1. I know you're making this thread because you plan on applying for helper, you have said this a lot to me and "accidentally" said it in global.
2. If you make a thread and feel bad about it, why even make the thread if itll come and bite you in the butt.
I don't really like threads apologizing for reasons that clearly are not true. You made that thread because you truly at least at the time believed that we were.
Don't apologize for something you really aren't sorry for