Seriously, I understand why some people would commit suicide, but I don't get the cutting thing. Can someone explain it?
~ @Ranger0203
As someone who has cut before, its like.. I don't know how to explain it. If you read the quote in my signature it might be easier to understand. I say the depression is like feeling numb, like you are just numb to everything. It's true, I say that because when you're depressed (more often than not) you probably have something that triggered it. People at school, bullies, issues at home, or even yourself. So you just become so.. used to being put down, disapointed, you just develop this whole 'I don't care' attitude, or at least I did. Now, I only cut hard enough like 3-4 times to draw blood but other than that they were only deep abrasions. But it felt like something I.. needed to do, ya know? I wasn't suicidal, but I wasn't emotionally stable enough to not do something, so I cut. I just needed to feel.
A lot of depressed people, cut because they just 1. Needed to feel something or 2. Let out anger. Its not a choice I would make now, I could never cut my self now, but it served as a way to get something out I really needed too. It's just that..
Btw this was like 2 years ago I haven't cut since so yay 2 years clean!