Changing it to -1 because I did some thinking.
I was trying to think of situations where you weren't annoying and or condescending and I couldn't think of one where you weren't. Also the prominent know it all prideful attitude when you would talk to people in general, that always seemed to be in every comment you said, annoyed the hell out of me. Then you spawned in tens of millions of Mebeles worth of blocks of gold, which is extremely questionable and certainly unforgettable. What scares me is you thought you would get away with it or that it would be excused for it because of your Admin rank. The thought that scares me the most is that you didn't care what effects it would have on the econmey and the other staff members. I mean really? That inexcusable and a, "I've learned my lesson," attitude won't change that. You had a reputation and you ruined it. It's going to take a lot of time for you gain your trust back.
So -1 for a long time, unless I see a submissive freindly down to earth Deinen0.
~ @Wubb8t
I truly apologize if this comes across as condescending to you, or anyone. I feel I must dispute your comment only to straighten out a couple misnomers that are present in your statement, not to try to persuade you to change your vote. I had never thought that I could get away with anything, quite honestly. I never gave the inevitable end result much of a thought. In hindsight, perhaps if I had thought about my consequences before I acted, it could have changed the entire course of events. Nor did I believe my admin rank had anything to do with the end result, because I was permed like any other person, and served the same amount of time as most perm bans had during that time. I, additionally, was not an admin during that time, nor had been one in a few months, so this was not a consideration for me at that time.
You are correct on a few things, though, what I did was unforgettable, which is why I will not shy away from the facts, but accept the criticism I deserve because of them. You are also correct that I did not pay attention to how my actions would affect the rest of the staff, and this is one of the things I regret most. It was unfair of me to put any of them into the position that I had put them in, and I am ashamed of that. More severely than just getting a ban, my actions cost me a number of splendid relationships with some people, and that is something I also regret extremely.
However, most of that was nearly a year ago, and I believe in moving forward rather than keeping myself in the history. The only thing I can, and will, do is move forward with the lessons I have learned from my mistakes. What I can say today is my actions then were abhorrent, and I can say with certainty that things like that will never happen again. I can also assure you, and anyone else, this is not an application for mod, supermod, and admin.
I applied for helper because I had always excelled with modreqs and simply helping the players. I believe in strong customer service, and unrelenting assistance for those who need it. I can field most questions on the server, and the questions I do not have answers to, I find them. I do not forget about a person who has came to me for help, and if it takes days, weeks, or months to get the appropriate answer. Being helper also allows me to work towards the one thing I believe is one of the most critical functions of the server, which is customer service.
I hope what I wrote is sufficient in explaining what I had set out to explain, and to show that I am not planning months in advance from today, in terms of where I am in staff. I am applying simply because I see an area that could use some help, and that is an area in which I found myself to naturally excel at, and for the most part enjoy.
