Oo yay here this is.
Deinen there was a time when I idolized you, I remember a specific incident in old meep where you helped me with a big theft in my head museum, you were an "officer" at the time, during that event I got to see a very mature and self sacrificing individual who eventually volunteered to give me your own head again for free, It even took like 80 tries and you stayed chipper. I put it in a special place away from all the other heads because it was the first head I had gotten by staff directly, and you had done it for the benefit of me alone. I was a nobody then and I did nothing to deserve that help, It what that behavior I had always(and still do for that matter) kept in my mind as "what good staff are like". It still drives me today.
You're a smart guy, I'm sure thats why in meepnetworks we got along, I was loud and opinionated and you actually possessed the ability to successfully argue(and agree) with me which is rare to me. I was completely content with having you as the(an) admin because I trusted that someone who I understood and could vouch for, was leading us.
The easiest way to say it simply is I had faith in you, and I don't know if I do or not today.
There is a big elephant in every one of these threads about your past and it has to deal with the events leading up to your resigning. Fact is you lied, and not just once to one person. You even generated and fueled a counter culture of "anti-staff", we even deal with it still. Some of which I deem understandable if you were truly in the right, and to that I don't have enough evidence to know. The idea that eventually, when the dust settles, that you still will choose the pile of gold over us, is the only thing that gives me doubt.
I gotta support you on this though, I can't judge another by simple +'s and -"s and what they add up to, one of the most important things we do as humans is forgive, we gotta remember that. So in short :
TL;DR
I was angry you lied to me bro, I hope I wont regret believing you again.
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p.s. Please try to reach out to those whom you've hurt the most, like 1 on 1, I think that is the only advice I can give you.
